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so it's been while since i got on here. I've been busy getting close to her and girlfriend. I've been getting know the girlfriend a lot more. she is really and has such a great personality. now talk all the time. b but i have accidentally flirted with both girls. i love to have both of them though. at one time would be even better. I've invited both then to come to my party, and to stay over. i could only hope i get a birthday surprise seeing as they both flirt back with me v but push it a little farther :)

She wants to stay at my house over the break. Hehe I am starting to crush on her hard. We are also going to attempt to get our other friend to admit she is bi-curious. She constantly hits on us! It's going to be a good holiday!

Jacob, I know I didn't know you, but I was at your viewing tonight..It's not fair that you had to die. It's not fair that your sister had to die. Just because some teenager decided to drive drunk while you were on your way home from the Christmas parade. If I could switch spots with you right now, I would. Nobody would miss me...I watched your mother try to open your sisters casket! I listened to her scream and beg for just one more moment with you and her! You were so young, had so much potential. Please come switch me spots...I will lay in your casket, you be with your sister, her baby that will no longer have a mommy, be with y'alls mom. It's almost Christmas...

I told her about me and my girlfriend. She sure hasn't stopped her flirting though! :) We text all the time now, talk about our girlfriends, flirt a little, we even hang out! We went to dinner, we came to my house, we did a school event, we study together, we text all the time. She even invited me to prom, she'll be going with her girlfriend, but i met her girlfriend and she wants to be friends. I would just go with our other friend but I would still be with her and it was still an invitation. :)

She just dumped me and I'm feel like an elephant is sitting on my chest. I don't know what to do. She won't take me back. I can't hold back the tears any more. She turned her phone off. I just lost one of the best things to happen to me... 

According To You: My Version

According to you, I'm cheating, I'm lying
I'm always laying with someone
According to you, I'm high class and spoiled
I can never be pleased.

I'm a mess, trailer trash,
because I can not do a thing right
According to you, according to you

But according to her, I'm fun to hang around with
She can not stop thinking of me
According to her, I'm beautiful and from a dream
I'm everything her girlfriend isn't

Almost had a kilogram (2.2 pounds) coming down with a force of 9,800N land on my head and crack my skull open. They tried to lie when I saw all 5 of them dangling and shaking the spring holding the weight above my head. That's alright, either I'll get them back or Karma will get you first.

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It's been almost 2 weeks since I was on here and updated y'all on how things have been going. Well today, she sits behind me and lays her head down on the desk with her arm out in front of her. I don't realize how close she is to me until I go to put my hands in my pockets and my elbow hits her hand. She starts touching my arm and kind of tickling her way up my arm and neck and starts playing with my hair. Just her touch sent waves down my spine! :D

It's been almost 2 weeks since I was on here and updated y'all on how things have been going. Well today, she sits behind me and lays her head down on the desk with her arm out in front of her. I don't realize how close she is to me until I go to put my hands in my pockets and my elbow hits her hand. She starts touching my arm and kind of tickling her way up my arm and neck and starts playing with my hair. Just her touch sent waves down my spine! :D

Well, she wasn't there today, but he was. We talked all period. We played around a little, he said I had a cute laugh and asked me more about me like where I moved from and what I like to do and I guess he was trying to get to know me more. I don't know, but I really liked it. 

So today was my first day of the experiment. It was a total dud though since last night i was an emotional trainwreck and as well today...tomorrow I will definitely do better!

So I have decided to take on the challenge to explore my sexuality. To come out of this shell I have been locked in since I moved schools. I'm ready to break out! Flirt with her, flirt with him, make friendships, intimate relationships, test my boundaries. I know where I stand, and I know how far I want to go. This is: The Experiment...

I have been dreaming about her every night for the past few nights. It's always different. I don't know what's going on. I can't help myself. I wake up sad because my dreams are just dreams. Is it true that your dreams are just wishes you want to come true?

Pitch Perfect was a great movie. Went and saw it with Lala today. The whole time however, I was singing all the songs and she knows I can sing but when we left she said she wants me to sing to her. This is my chance to make her fall in love with me all over again. Hopefully I don't screw things up again. I'm not exactly sure what sing to sing though. Or if I should just write her a song. Hmm...